This? Yeah I missed this a lot this year. If you watch my videos you will remember me saying this but “I live for race day.” The ridiculous amount of anti-chafe stick, lacing up my racing flats, the fuel belt/racing bib struggle (okay maybe not this), the “I think I have to pee” right before the race gun goes off (okay maybe not this either..). Oh I know! The pounding in my chest, the butterflies and the big goofy smile on my face as I cross the start line. I miss it so much! This year I decided to put the full marathon on hold since I had run 7 fulls in the span of 2 years. No doubt it can be hard on a persons body. But the thrill the full gives me is something I can’t explain to people who don’t enjoy running as much. I thought the break would be good, and then I could focus on the shorter faster distances. I instructed the 10 km clinic at the start of the year and boy that was a challenge. I excel with the full and half distances, but especially the full distance. I know how my body preforms best on these distances when it comes to fueling, pacing, negative splits (I run my marathons with a negative split at goal since my body works best that way), and keeping my head/ego in check.
Then another goal came on the radar, completing in bikini or figure, and my coach made me stop what I loved most. The only taste of running I got was interval sprints on a treadmill. If you know me, or run with me, you know I HATE SPEED WORK. So this was like speed work every few days or so. Gross. I have decided to “call it quits” on the competing goal due to a sour experience with a “coach” and realizing that mentally it wouldn’t be something I would want to necessarily experience. I am pretty sure it would spiral me back into a place I don’t want to be.
Running on the other hand puts me in a place I need to be. Conquering something you genuinely HATED for most of your adolescent years and finding out you actually love it is pretty powerful…well maybe not all things. I used to hate brussel sprouts and look at me now! I wouldn’t call that powerful.. more like delicious.. ;).
As I mentioned in my latest vlog, I believe in the power of thought. If you think something will happen hard enough, it will. After cancelling my goal of competing I realized I needed running again. Since I was on such low fat and low carb, my body rebounded causing me to gain 15-20 lbs. I made a silly excuse a reality for majority of my running years saying “I run best at ____lbs and I have less aches and pains” so I was very hesitant to get back into the groove. So when I started running again all I thought was how my back, hips and knees would ache after. You know what? they did. Yet on the runs that I ran with not a care in the world, just enjoying the scenery, fresh ocean air and wildlife, I came through my apartment doors energized, happy, and mentally calm. No aches. No pains. I truly believe this is because I shifted my thought processes.
I’ve decided to move on from weighing myself for a while again. I am in an amazing place with my balance of life, food and exercise and I feel confident with what I am doing. So that saying I made as a reality when it was really just an excuse? yeah throwing that out the window. I was running when I was at my heaviest weight, so this excuse isn’t valid and will not make me stop working towards what I want.
I have been on the fence with what I was going to do come January. I knew I wanted to get back into training for a half or full marathon. I love the routine of it. Long slow distance on Sundays. Drills on Tuesdays. Two other EZ pace runs in the week. Sprinkled with some cross training. Repeat. Oh baby, yes please! So I have been making a pros and cons list for each distance. Silly, but this is how I make hard decisions (if this is my hard decision in a while, I will be golden ha!). Sure the full marathon takes more energy, more commitment, more strictness on my part, and can be a bit more costly (registration, shoes, fuel etc), but I love it. I LOVE the rush of the full marathon and you know what? I am going to do it. I am training for my EIGHTH full marathon. Holy craziness!
BMO Vancouver full marathon in May is the race I am most likely registering for. I have yet to do the course since it has been changed and I am excited for it! I am not going to be too butt hurt if I don’t PB (personal best) this race, but I will still do my best to do so. I am aiming to get my LSD (long slow distance) run pace to a 5:45/km, which is just a touch faster than what I ran last year during training. I also plan on getting more strict with my drill night. Like I said I HATE SPEED WORK, but I’ll suck it up and do it. I may try to run 2 fulls this year, we will see. But at this point I am for sure running the full in May. Heck, it will keep me occupied and focused while my husband is deployed too. Win win.
Know what else doesn’t help the marathon bug? Watch Spirit of the Marathon . Seriously. I watch this before EVERY full marathon as a pump up and it is my biggest motivation.
I am BACK baby! Time to repair or buy a new fuel belt! Mine looks like a MESS! ha!